Life update and Mom tribute

Well we have been so busy lately. I don't really know how it happened maybe it's just due to how long everything takes when you have 3 kids under the age of 3. I was reading in Ecclesiaties the other day, that famous passage that says "A time to..." well when I read "a time to be born" it really made me think about God's timing in my life and how He has chosen to bless me with three beautiful kids. I am trully thankful! Having said that I know that my patience is on high demand and low supply. Lately my sweet Jack has been asserting his own free will a lot. Especially in the area of food. I think he's just using that though as an outlet for stubborness, because he's even refusing to eat things like PB&J that I'm sure he likes. Plus the lack of mommy time , since calvin was born, is catching up with him. Lately he's been throwing a fit when I have to nurse calvin and has even asked to nurse a few times even though it's been about 7 months since he last did.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate, but that's way it goes one week you feel so totally fulfilled by all these things going on in your life and the next thing you know those very same things have you feeling overwhelmed. Lately I've been dwelling on peoples sin instead of on Christ's love. Don't get me wrong sin living in people's lives has to be dealt with but if that's all you think about you will feel defeated, and I have. I need to just give praise to my sweet Jesus who loves me and all others with unfailing love that I don't yet comprehend!

This blog has been kinda random but that just shows I have a lot on my mind. I do want to recognize that it's Mom's day tomorrow and not only am I a mom who's really hoping to take it easy tomorrow, but I have to say I trully have the world's greatest mama and mother-in-law. I couldn't do have of what I do without my mom around! I have never a day in my life paid for a babysitter. I'm so glad that both my mom and Bryan's mom are always positive with me. They never give unasked for advice and respect my decisions with my kids. I love you both!

Things are so different the second and third time around wouldn't you say mamas. I know it would seem that I'd be more stressed out with three kids than I was with one but I'm really not. Don't get me wrong I am super busy and soon something has to give, but at least I have more info this time around and don't feel so clueless. And there's not so much pressure to do things someone else's way.I mean so what if Jackie isn't pottie trained yet or doesn't talk that great, if you spend two minutes with him you know he's smart and clever and sweet. He has made his mind up to do things in his time and since I am more laid back now I am okay with that. As for Lucy, she's still my first baby everything that happens with her is still new to me, so I am still guessing half the time with her. Poor first children with untrained parents.... But I have to give props to my third baby, Calvin. He must be the world's easiest baby. I have to give some of the credit to myself though, I am his mama, go me! Well there's no time left for me to blog afterall I do have three kids!

orphans and widows

I've had a heavy heart lately. The Lord has really been working in my life lately and Satan is doing his best to thwart His work in my life. Seriously we must not forget that Satan desires nothing less than to make us ineffective in Jesus' world. I find he always uses things very close to home. He brings up things in my marriage or distracts me with my kids. And lately I have felt the Lord's pull to reach out to others more but I find that even in that I have had selfish motives.But Christ is stregthening me with His patience in dealing with me and His truth to combat Satan's lies. I've been reading in James lately and the last verse in chp. 1 has been on my mind. It's the verse that says to visit orphans and widows. I've been trying to think of pratical and realistic ideas of how to actually do that verse. "But be doers of the word"... I've been considering visiting at the nursing home once a month. I know there must be plenty of people there who rarely get visitors and I could take my kids occasionally. They love to see little people. When I took Lucy around Christmas time to pass out cards, everyone made a huge fuss over her and I just thought about how heart breaking it would be to never see a precious child. I seriously take for granted the fact that most of my day is filled with little people. Plus I really love to visit with older woman, I used to have two ladies in highschool I would go and visit occasionally and I loved it! I have also been thinking about needy children in our area, but I don't know what my role in that is going to be yet but I definately want to get involved. That may be something for the future, maybe being a foster parent or adopting but I know there must be something I can do right now. Any ideas?

Lucy and Jack Update

Lucy and Jack's birthdays are right around the corner. I can't believe they are going to be two and three years old, that's crazy!! Here's an update on both,

Lucy: She has mad communication skills and uses big words like interesting or ridiculous like she's 30, which I am pretty sure she thinks she is. She's still very independant, which helps me out most of the time. But she has FOB (fear of boredom) syndrom like her father. So most of the day she follows me around asking me to read her books, or let her watch TV, or get her a craft to do. She has trouble playing on her own, but she's been doing better and lately has been pretending to be Penny from the Rescuers. It's such a kid thing to do, so cute! She loves to play outside. It seems to be the only place she's safe from boredom. She is really sweet sometimes and likes to take care of her baby brothers. She's the only 2 1/2 year old I know that can change a diaper all on her own (except for her aunt Hede when she was that age). Whenever anyone in the house is sick she will stop what she's doing every few minutes to check on them. Sometimes she will say the most random things that will make me laugh so hard. She's crazy and loves to be surrounded by people. She's also very clever and persuasive. Now that I read that back to myself I realize that this is a description of her father if he was almost 3 year old, I think the only thing she didn't get from him is that she's a girly girl. I love you little girl!

Jack: He's a little behind on his verbalization, but here's the words he can say mama, daddy, sis, bubba, mine, ball, bye, stuck, duck, no, I did it, poppi, boompa, dog, Dane, monkmonk (monkey), wee, ouch. He's said a lot of other words but those are the ones he says regularly. He also has a few words that belong just to him that he uses at his own discrection nano, locka, bucka, buck and I am sure there's more I can't remember. Still he's very good at communicating without words. Most of the time he makes sure I know what he's wanting through gestures and nodding his head yes or no. He's my snuggler and most of the time is very sweet and considerate of others. And he can be very sensitive. But he likes to wrestle and play rough, he can't wait for his bubba to get big enough to rough house.He's very determined so he has very good motor skills because he simply won't give up. He's also very stubborn and can throw a fit that you would not believe! I haven't started potty training him yet (I've been a little busy can you believe it) but he has been telling me when he goes to the bathroom so I think he's about ready. Even though he doesn't speak very good he understands everything you say and for the most part takes direction pretty good. He is very good at entertaining himself, which is a huge blessing for me. He can find something to play with anywhere, outside, inside, in the kitchen, in the bathroom it doesn't really matter. He is very creative.Sometimes he gets really goofy and just lets loose of all his inhibitions. I love it when that happens. He's kinda like being a policeman most of the time it's not that much work but every so often a situation arises that your not sure you can handle. I love you Jackie! ( I said before he was born I would never call him that now that's all I call him)

play this game with me.

Two truths and a lie:

I love Taylor Swift
I've only kissed one man.
I used to swim competitively.

Pick out my lie then post your own truths and lie on you blog!

"vanity of vanities all is vanity"

So I've been running the last 2 weeks. And I am pretty proud. I don't usually get back into the swing of things this soon after having a baby. The thing that's bugging me is I haven't lost any of the baby weight other than the 20 lbs that came off initially. I know you must think that after losing 20 lbs I must not have that much left to loose, but I gained 46 lbs so I still have 26 more lbs to loose. I feel like it wasn't this hard the other 2 times, but I do have a very bad memory. I know he's only 2 months but I still weigh exactly what I did two weeks ago before I started running. It would help if I had one pair of normal (not maternity) pants that fit. Despite the fact that I currently have 5 different sizes in my closet I own almost no clothes that fit my current body. Now then, maybe by verbalizing my frustration I can move on so thanks for listening.

new pics

Just a few pics from recent days:

All my babies together:

Me and my babies, I love them!