So it's been a while. I tend to loose intrest in things quickly and I am trying not to do that with blogging because it's a nice outlet for me. but after the kids go to bed I just like to spend time with bryan, so that is why I haven't made any time. Anyway changes that have occured since my last blog, Calvin is crawling quite proficiently, Jack is really starting to talk a lot more, and Lucy continues to get more and more like me everyday. I have always said how much she is like her dad, which she is, but this year I am seeing so much of me in her. She is really starting to play games like a big kid. She will watch a show and then pretend to be characters from the show. The other day she even played the Duggars. Hilarious! But the quality that I see in her that saddens me is my anxiety. As a child (and still) I had a lot of fears and worries. I see Lucy going down that path of fear over lies that satan feeds her. Sometimes she is totally controled by irrational fears that I can't talk her down from. The other day we went to the park and a little boy was blowing spit bubbles. Lucy became convinced that this boy was mean and was trying to get her with his spit bubbles, she spent 20 min. not playing and wanting to sit in my lap. I finally had to take her over to the little boy and let her see that he was fine, she still didn't really play until he left. I know this may seem kinda silly but I take her fears very seriously. Fear is a powerful tool of control and I do not want her surrending to fear. I still feel that there is a stronghold in my own heart regarding fear. I need my Jesus to fill me with courage in the knowledge of His inevitable victory over anything bad and scary. That is what I want for my little girl too. For her to hear Christ's precious voice of reason, calling her to safety and peace. He is such a protective savior, He will not fail in keeping me safe from harm. So my pray for Lucy is that for every time satan fills her with fear, Christ and His sweet spirit would fill me with words from Him to her until the day that His spirit comes to dwell in her.